Don’t try this at home

Dear whoever is listening

im never going to live up to your expectations.

im never going to be perfect

the truth is

i have no motivation 

YOU’RE my motivation.

I dont care about much of anything. 

Im selfishly sick.

And i hope to GOD this will get better.

They say the grass is always greener on the other side

but ive been up on the fence

and im still not convinced that i want to come down and join the world.